It amuses me how many people feel guilty whenever they forget to greet another person during his/ her birthday. I am actually one of those people. Because I am not one who gets a small notebook & then jot down all my friends birthdays. I actually did before, but only in my planner, then poof! I left my planner in one of the rooms in LS building & what do you know, I couldn�t find it! Besides the fact that my schedule for the rest of that term was in that planner, I lost my stored memory of my friends� birthday dates. So whenever a friend of mine celebrates his or her birthday, I�d only know it if it has already passed or if its months away from the actual date.
So imagine how happy I am that at 12 midnight yesterday, people were already bombarding me with text messages of birthday greetings! This went on throughout the day & I had a lot of friendster messages yesterday. I felt so guilty because I have not always remembered the birthdays of the people who greeted me. Nonetheless I felt overwhelmed & blessed. To all those who greeted me, thanks a lot you all made me smile and happy.
I did nothing yesterday.* But when I went home from mass yesterday, I saw my two year old niece wearing party clothes while her mom was holding a big birthday cake. They got a big chocolate cake for me (I would have preferred mocha at the time but what the heck!) and they have this birthday candles symbolizing that I am already 23. I felt really indifferent with the fact that I just turned 23. Dalawapu�t tatlong taon na ako dito mundo aba�y wala pa ding nangyayari. My true friends know what I mean. Coz even if I achieved a few things, there�s a lot that I am longing for. Anyway, it was funny because my niece thought that it was her birthday and ended up blowing the candles. Thrice. Love you Sam!
Whew! It was a nice day. Here�s to more birthdays!
*Note: I made this entry yesterday only got the chance to post it today.
I am really tired.
It has been technically 3 months since I supposedly graduate but I am still a useless bum. My mom would constantly get angry about it then become more rational after she has calmed down. After all, she is the one who insists that I choose well with the job I take.
I just had to turn down a job offer this morning. It was supposed to be for a sales and marketing position. I kinda like it because I like the product that I would be selling and my friend assured me that there is an assured market for it.
My crush is already my friend in friendster! I become sad whenever I think that we were friends during high school but even if we attended the same college, the number of girls drooling over him has made him so unreachable and far. It is good to know that he remembers me. And that even if I unintentionally snubbed him (due to my uneasiness whenever I see him) he still acknowledges me.
After graduating with two courses, travelling to US after 9 years and officially job hunting this is the best entry I could come up with.
I don't know why I fail to mention the "good things"
I just submitted my apply to graduate form..
Now if only I could make it happen.
Wag naman sana akong bumagsak this term. No No No No! Hay its March na next week. almost 6 weeks nalang remaining this term. And in my college life. Wala pang tumatawag na company sakin. Grr. Am I not qualified? Ayoko talaga ng lax period. As much as possible sana gusto ko nakaset na ung time kung kelan ako magtatrabaho. I need to. After graduation my parents wouldn't give me na money. Ngayon pa nga lang super bargaining na ang nagaganap e.
I've been doing a lot of thinking.. siguro people at the same stage as I am are also feeling the same way.
Ung parang hindi mo alam kung san ka lulugar...
Sana ilagay nalang ako ni Lord kung san ako dapat at kung san Niya gusto.
I can't believe I'm editing my resume again. Grr. This better pays off. Hay, I know I prayed hard so that God would give me a good job but I'm hoping He'd give me a job in my dream company. Hay, I really have so many plans. I was talking a while ago to my former roommate Aimee and she was also thinking the same thing. She feels she could do more and be better and that her company right now is not giving her that training and exposure that she needs. Sabi nga niya, "Kahit na pagtrabahuhin ako ng isang kumpanya ng Sabado at Linggo, ayos lang basta ba sulit sa compensation at training." There goes a potential old lady statement. Hahaha! But seriously,sometimes I really admire my friends for being so driven and ambitious. And I also have those friends who want to immediately become housewives and I admire their courage to be that person they want to be. To live their dream.
I guess what I'm getting at is that I don't really know what I want to be.
One of our family friends wanted to be a consultant in an international organization and he is now living his dream because the World Health Organization recruited him. I just envy him.. being a diplomat and all. My cousin and I were talking about it and I told her that if she would give me five years I could also create the path for my dream. I guess its safe to say that she didn't believe me. We may be the closest in our family but sometimes I feel I am underestimated not only by her but my whole family. There are only two people who continues to believe in me. My mom and dad. Being an only child, I want to give back everything they have invested and spent on me. I want to give them a good life after giving me almost 18 years of top education.
The thing is I feel the pressure of the nearing crossroad along my path. although I have made up my mind to listen to God's will, there are still hesistations on whether there is something in store for me in the future.
Meanwhile, thesis work has been killing me lately. Meron na namang mga tampuhan at konting inis sa paggawa ng thesis. Bakit ba hindi ako tantanan ng ganito? One of our interviewee's kanina asked us who made our interview schedule. He said the questions was so frank that it made him think twice about the different perspectives of our topic. I'm sorry but I could not further talk about our interviews here due to a confidentiality clause in our questionnaire. However, I can share our thesis topic. It's still interesting for me kahit na I have been doing it for almost a year na.
The title of our thesis is The Truth about Lies: Perception of employees on the effects and responses to lying in the work setting. Basically we wanted to know why employees lie (nagsisinungaling) among themselves despite the promotion of the value of honesty. Sadly, we don't get a lot of support from the people we need it. One of our panel last term for thesis proposal didn't even give it a chance. He did not read it. We got a low grade and we don't exactly know why.
I'm hoping things would change this term. Ha. We should get a commendation for trying to solve corruption and politics in work. Hey we're trying to make the world a better place you know!!!
Dream on Aimee. Continue dreaming. One day the star would bump into you.
I'm tired. Have another interview for tomorrow better finish editing my resume....
I have failed to post here for a long time. Feeling busy and all. But I have managed to write a personal journal as in the traditional pen and notebook. Paminsan, I get shocked with what I write. There are some emotions that I feel pala na I am not able to say out loud but comes out in my journal. But anyway, although my blog now is composed of a two-toned rectangle/squares format, I am not really very enthusiastic in writing. My friend cris is supposed to fix this up but she's in ojt right now. If malibre siya.. gaganda na din ito! yey!
Anyway, I have been starting to send resumes now that it is supposed to be my graduating term. I really hope hindi ako magkasabit this term. please naman. Gusto ko ng magkasaysay ang buhay ko. hay! hehe.. labo. 
I watched the movie Walk the Line kahapon, I didn't know it was a true story. I loved it. Hindi ko akalain na ganun siya kaganda. I cried. siguro 3 times. even the guy 2 seats on my right was also crying. It was such a touching movie. Kung ako si June Carter at may isang Johhny Cash na baliw na baliw sakin.. siguro kahit hindi ko sobrang mahal. I'd still give him a chance. Friends, if you have the time. watch it!! 
I went to euro star carnival after with my cousins and norbs with her friends. I really had fun. I tried to ride all the adult rides para sulit ung ride all you can payment. I tried booster, joker, bump cars, ferris wheel, flipper and even the carousel. But that one ride in flipper almost made me fall while walking after. Hilong hilo ako. Kami lang ni jet, norbs' friend ang sumakay. It was deadly. I wasn't afraid that I was going to fall but I thought I might not be able to endure it again next time. Signs of aging. I just wanted to ride it para maprove ko na hindi pa ako tumatanda. Malakas pa ang loob ko. But damn, sobrang kinabahan talaga ako. I was thinking I wanted that ride to be over nalang agad.
But, I did enjoy yesterday. Kasi buong linggo na akong pagod na pagod with thesis. Sometimes I feel pa na my other thesismates are starting to feel that I am not doing enough. Shux, hindi lang kami magkasama gumawa but that doesn't mean na hindi ako gumagawa. I was so stressed out this week. I'm gald we went to euro star, I forgot my thesis for a while.
Anyway, 10 weeks left sa term nito.. and in my college life. 10 weeks left and I'll be facing you... REAL WORLD.
Annyeong!
i can't believe that it only dawned on me right this moment that summer is already here! Trust a trimester system to ruin your sense of time. So what have I been up to?
First, it was course cards distribution today, i meant yesterday. and well yeah i had pretty good grades. (hint: i get a totally cool parchment paper with my name and our national hero's name on it next term) it's so amazing how I always end up dehydrated after course cards day. Must be from the final negotiations I try to initiate to get better grades. And besides, I went up and down in William Hall 7th floor today more than five times ---- USING THE STAIRS! so anyway, before i sound really boring and nerdy i would just like to say that I am going to boracay in about 12 hours from now. yup FIRST TIMER. I'm such a loser I know.
anyway, I am having a hard time sleeping again, I don't know if this is from excitement or from lack of mental activities.
In other news, I saw the Beauty and the Beast poster and I have to say.. I am only watching if Kc is playing Beauty. Nothing agaisnt Karel.. just don't wanna use my money and not see Kc perform.
So there.. my mind is floating again.. might post after the trip! 
